i thought i would be brave enough to face another surgery in my life, since it wont be the 1st time.
but as the doc explained the procedures and what i can or cant do before and after the operation, i'm filled with fear.
i rem...
how painful the anaesthetic injection had felt when i was a mere 7 yrs old and how i screamed hysterically before the surgeons and nurses.
the feeling of lying in the flat hospital bed and being pushed into the lift and surgery room.
cant imagine going thru all that again.
i rem how uncomfortable the scar had felt and i guess it would be the same this time.
dun wanna go thru all that again.
hopefully it wont decrease the so little self-esteem left in me.
