early in the morning
i just got to know a piece of really sad news from jas.

yet another acquaintance from ahs has passed away in a bike accident last night.

cant even keep track of how many deaths it has been since we left ahs 3 yrs ago.
sigh.

i rem being in the same chinese class as Junie in sec1.
also rem helping her to pass notes to her then-best-friend, huishan, during lessons.

we're just 19.
at the prime of our youth, having a future and dreams.
yet, life can be taken from us as easily as this.

i guess thats why, we should treasure every moment that we breathe
its times like these that remind me how truly precious life can be.

when there are many many things weighing down on my heart, i feel like fainting.

its gonna be only 2 more wks before i head off to bangkok and i'm informed that i'm hotel-less.
and the hotel which i wanted is so so so convenient and within a good price range too, and now i cant get a room there.
arghz. sleep roadside alr la.

orientation is on 17th july, the next day after i come back from bkk, so will i still have the mood to be enthu and ra-ra for another 5 days 4 nights?
orientation briefing is on 15th, which is when i''ll still be in the land of siam.
ha.

judging by the number of times i've taken a cab to work, i think i'm spending more than what i'm earning.
how ironic that when one lives nearer to his/her workplace or sch, one tends to take cab more.
a tinging feeling tells me that there's an economic theory to explain this, but my brain has rot to the extent that i dun think its producing any more intellectual juices.
and given my very bad memory, i cant remember at all.

alright ANYWAY, some good things to lighten up my mood for now, yeah, for just a second, before i slunk back to the reality that a bad karma has surrounded me so much that things are getting really bad in my life.
shld go temple to pray soon.

ok i digress.

i'm ending work this friday!!!
yay!!!
so fast!
n tmr's my off day so i only have 2 more days of work left!
hahaha
i can feel many of u smiling now, feeling happy for me right.
lol

it was mich's and xiaowen's last day on sunday.
so sad, lesser ppl to eat with, lesser ppl to have fun with.

the whole group of contract staff at downtown east. ppl who have stood by me day and night =)

celebrated ming's birthday at sushi tei last fri.

maril, ming, me and dom


maril, ming, me and nat

oh n vj has emailed me to invite me to collect my service award on college day on 29 july.
good its not going to clash with anything, that is, if i'm not attending hall camp.
haha...
n i'm able to invite 2 guests along so whoever is interested in the yummy buffet after the ceremony, just tell me =)

JJ!!!!!!!

if david tao is THE man,
jj lin is MY guy.

hahaha.

i want to steal the white piano that jj played on.
i want to steal jj's vocal power.
i want to steal jj's cute dimples.
i want to steal jj's voice.
i want to steal jj's dance moves.
i want to steal jj's piano and composing skills.

i want to steal jj away.

the 110 bucks which i paid for the concert is more than worth it.
its a priceless experience!
all i can say is he's a singer with surprises, with lots of stage presence, with humour injected into his concert, with at least a good guest singer (A-du, cos i think jin sha's voice cant make it when singing live)
lol

he's so cute, being so bashful when his fans shouted that they love him, and when he wasnt wearing much on the upper part of his body.
haha
and it's heart-wrenching when he was so touched towards the end that he cried and stopped singing and even had to knelt down halfway to collect his emotions back.
awwwww.....

maril and i are just so amazed at how fantastic the concert is.
but what a pity the ppl around us are so un-enthu, except for the girl beside me and her bf.
the bf even cheered so loudly!
see, even guys like jj
lol
maril and i kept agreeing, especially at the front part of the concert, that VJ can definitely cheer louder than the thousands of ppl there.
singapore, where is your high-ness?!?!

omigosh, if a guy can croon any ballad or R&B song as well as JJ can, and dedicate it to me, omg, i will marry him immediately.
hahaha
i'm going crazy =p

with no troublemakers around, and with the capabilities of ahmad n mine, we finished work at 2205!
hahahahaha

anyway, its finally my off day tmr after working for 9 consecutive days with long hrs!!!
yay!!!
but i have to spend it travelling allllllll the way to the other side of the island.
well at least i get to watch some tv, get away from the sesame street song thats playing in downtown east repeatedly every 3 mins, and get a breather.
lol
n luckily i've found sock ling to go to ntu with me tmr.
haha...

jj's concert is this sat n i'm really excited =)
bangkok trip is coming up and i'm anticipating it =)
work is going to end and woohoo, how i love the countdown process! =)

but it also means sch is going to start, orientation is coming really soon and i'm not sure if i can get myself into the most enthu mood and start the adaptation of being in a whole new environment again.
omg.

it's father's day. =)

supposed to go out for father's day dinner but i'll be working tmr night.
well, actually it's alr sunday now so yeah, i'll be working on father's day night.
hmmm... it's like i really have so little time left for my family and frens and myself.
(no time to go library to return books, no time to fill up and send out NTU forms, putting off my hostel application, whatever whatever)
compared to the 5 day wks i've had in banks for the past few mths, this is really different.

anyway i've never been much of a daddy's girl.
my sis is more of the daddy's girl.
perhaps cos i'm more independent since young, perhaps cos i'm the elder sis.

my dad's character and mine are quite alike in some ways, so sometimes similar characters clash even more easily.
and maybe cos he's quite chauvinistic, and i'm quite a feminist.
lol

but of cos, i'm glad i've a dad like him cos he cares for his family.

fetching me to sch everyday
fetching me everywhere else which i need to go when i'm rushing for time, and it may be out of the way for him
worried that i'm short of money that i'll starve myself
concerning abt my grades and academic choices in life
asking how work has been for me everytime i step into a new work environment
uptight abt my health
etc etc.

all these are simple things, but enough for me to sense my dad's love and care.
this father's day, i look back and think that i'm still not the perfect daughter that i wish to be.
so i gotta improve more.
and i hope i'll make my parents proud and happy of me everyday.

thought that this is a very pretty photo of 4e during our gathering bout a wk ago.
(well, half of 4e actually.. lol)

sometimes, photos do more than show the faces of the individuals.
they makes us reminisce about the past, remind us of our happy times, and emphasize the fact that we've all grown since.
nevertheless, the days spent together will always be a part of our memories in our lives.

job satisfaction :)

manned the redemption centre mostly by myself from 9.30am to 2.15pm.
so proud of myself cos i can remember more things n not become so panicky anymore!
haha...
though i still need to seek help at times, i'm becoming less dependent as the days pass.
and i've finally learnt the steps at the card booth clearly, thanks to michelle's patient teaching!

this is indeed job satisfaction. =)

yay an off day for me tmr!
broadband ppl coming to fix it in the morning, n then i'll be off to plaza sing for my pirates, n then at night, meet jas to pass her money for our hotel booking.
so looking forward to everything cos having less time for leisure makes me treasure my free time more.. haha

oh n cos i've been missing out on the GSS action soooooo much, i'm compensating by shopping on michelle's jewellery site.
lol

miss lucky-draw-queen jasmin tan actually just won 2 tkts to JJ's concert just by calling 933 while it cost me a bomb to buy one tkt for myself.
n we were planning to go tgr initially.
seems like i haven been able to rub off any luck from her even after being her fren for 11 yrs.
argh

since then

yeshhhhh i'm finally here again.

haha
felt so long since i've last posted here, although well, it hasnt really been.
perhaps cos my new job has kept me so busy that i dun even have time to come online and snoop around.
lol

finally getting into the momentum of the job.
was so lost and tired for the 1st 2 days cos there's so much info to remember and i just felt so helpless being unable to give out the correct info to demanding customers on the spot.
oh man, some singaporeans are simply unreasonable, lazy and brainless.
tsk tsk

basically there're 2 different kinds of job scopes. 1 is where i am at the redemption booth and customers walk in to ask information abt downtown east and redeem things. The other 1 is where we promote a new Downtown East card at a booth.
i'm mostly situated at the redemption booth, nearer to the managers and stuck with this i-think-i'm-so-great part timer.
i wish that i'm at the card booth more cos there're ppl like michelle, jessie, diana, jianwen there.
haha

but anyway, being a customer relations officer isnt easy at all.
i dun foresee myself being in the customer service line as my career in future.
haha

btw, the past wk has been tough cos other than having to cope with the pressure that comes with a new job, i've been down with fever, flu and cough.
tsk tsk
missed the outing with est and co. at clarke quay
missed a number of tv shows

talk abt having no life.

i miss jogging.
i miss shopping.
i miss sleeping in on wkends!

my goodness, this morning i woke up and amazed myself by the fact that today is the 1st ever sunday in my whole life that i'm going to work.
haha
plus the weather was so cooling that i just wanted to lie in my bed cosily.

ok la
i shld stop complaining
haha

getting the hang of the job makes me feel better abt going to work actually
and bitching abt customers with my colleagues is quite funny
and at least i do have ppl whom i can click with at work! =)

oh btw, i've collected my specs and yupz, i'm liking them!
just that they're heavier than my previous ones so i can feel the weight straining on my ears.
oh and i was given a $5 parkway voucher so aiyo, next time have to take an hr bus ride to go back there to buy things.
haha

weekend madness

weekend madness.

that second word reminds me of xingqi who always uses that word
haha
anyway, met up with her and ming on fri cos we went back to vj to collect certs tgr.

finally ended my months of search for a nice pair of specs on friday!
special thanks to ming who always ended up accompanying me on my search, haha... and i ended up patronising the shop where she made hers.
hope i'll still like my specs when i get it next wk...
lol

4e had its 1st gathering ever since our graduation at fish n co on saturday.
my girls and i ended up talking to each other mostly
but really enjoyed the bantering between zhipeng and fengquan too
haha
that PAIR haven changed one bit at all when they get tgr.

est, jas and i then proceeded to hit the MIDNIGHT SALES at marina sq
and gosh, i spent quite a bit on a Warehouse bracelet and a pair of capris.
haha... and finally tasted the Hokkaido ice-cream, yummy!
gotta need to be in the shopping mood before one has the patience to fight through the crowd =)

went pc fair with my family today
cos my sis wanted a laptop and she ended up with acer's
also came home with a printer
sony vaios were sold out alr!
oh gosh...
it seems like practically the whole s'pore was at suntec today and luckily we went early cos the news reported that ppl cant even enter in the afternoon and had to wait for an hr before entering the hall.

right.
so after a busy wkend, i'm beginning a new wk with a new job!
gonna be a customer relations officer at downtown east and i'm quite scared cos haven really done this kind of job before and the manager kept scaring me with hypothetical situations.
it's back to a young and holiday-mood environment after being in corporate environments for so long.
haha...
hope everything will go well and i hope i'll enjoy myself while working!
and of cos, hope i can click with all my colleagues.. haha.. =)

courage

i thought i would be brave enough to face another surgery in my life, since it wont be the 1st time.
but as the doc explained the procedures and what i can or cant do before and after the operation, i'm filled with fear.

i rem...
how painful the anaesthetic injection had felt when i was a mere 7 yrs old and how i screamed hysterically before the surgeons and nurses.
the feeling of lying in the flat hospital bed and being pushed into the lift and surgery room.

cant imagine going thru all that again.

i rem how uncomfortable the scar had felt and i guess it would be the same this time.

dun wanna go thru all that again.

hopefully it wont decrease the so little self-esteem left in me.