lost chance. once again.

it feels like heaven likes to make a sport of me in this arena.
or maybe, it's my own fault afterall.

but anyway, i passed by an opportunity once again.

maybe it's just not meant to be, so maybe yes this is good in the long term.
but maybe, it might be bad too.

but anyway, it's all over, cos what's done can't be undone, or rather, what's not done cannot be done anymore at this point of time.


i feel like going out there and do something crazy and get a good laugh out of it, because i havent felt happy for a long long while.
just like how in my uni days, i got to try some things which i thought i would never do, but eventually when i accomplished it, im so proud of myself that i've acty gt the potential.

but now, what?