I've been re-reading Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood.
At a slower pace this time, to rediscover things.
Perhaps to try to unravel and comprehend the irrationality of love.
Perhaps to regain the faith in the emotion held in highest regard by all.
Perhaps to rediscover a reason to believe.
To search for what has been lost over the past year.
No worries, I'm still in one fine piece.
And nor have i been thru any huge damage or experienced any heartbreak during 2007.
It's just a matter of seeing past alot of things that were used to be deemed very important, and then losing faith in some other things.
To the point that i feel that it is now perhaps time to try to regain some faith and trust, in order to strike a healthy balance.
Been having heart-to-heart talks with a couple of dear frens on separate occasions during this hols.
A very good time to catch up and understand one another more.
After hearing so much, it's yet again another reminder to me that there's still alot more to learn.
And it's perhaps now the time to start beliving and hoping, to a greater extent.
Even though the subconscious mind is still unwilling to take a step further in the face of fear.
Still, as the song goes, "There can be miracles, when you believe."
I will try to believe in more.
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School is starting really really soon again.
I'm feeling loads of dread this time, perhaps cos there seems to be alot of uncertainty ahead.
And perhaps the past semesters that i've gone thru are making me even more wary.
To think of the move back into hall again on sunday night, which is approaching so fast, and restarting hall life again is a hassle in itself and adding on to the dread of everything else.
I guess i've gotten too used to staying at home for the past 2 months alr.
Okay nvm, i just need to adapt. =)
The clock now reads 2.55am.
This was supposed to be an half hour login at 1.30am to IE just to check mails.
An inspiration sparked off from reading a blog has somehow chased away the writing block and resulted in some paragraphs above, coming out from a perpetual exhausted soul due to a whole day of shopping.
Just some mindless thoughts, dun mind me and dun read too much into them.
Goodnight all. =)
