It's the start of wk 4 alr!
I'm like so busy, busy as a bumble bee.
Want to slp at 1am every night, but always cant manage to do so.
Sigh.

201 cls nv fails to make me feel super stressed.
Quiz on 5th feb next wk, eve of cny eve. =_______=
How am i going to sit for the quiz, i dunno, considering the amount of things i dunno abt the module.
On a random note, my 201 proj grp consists of 5 girls, as my tutor arranged randomly. It's the first time i'm working in a pure girls' grp, haha. I'm so glad that we're working well so far! =)

Contemplating if i shld go shop for cny clothes first before meeting donna tonight who's flying off to italy soon.
Hmm but now, i think its not so much of wanting to get new clothes, but rather the need for retail THERAPY.

Okay shall try to figure out some 201 qns before i head out of ntu land!
Hmmm plus, i've been wanting to clean up my hall and mop the floor. Haha.
Okay i'm going to get started now!

I've reformatted my comp and i'm really satisfied now. =) Hopefully it's really okay now. Haha. And i've installed all the programs which i want, esp. photoshop is now permanently installed. hahaha. I've been troubling quite a no. of ppl with this particular software and i'm really ever so grateful for their selfless help!! Jodi for helping and teaching me the usage and i also troubled WT, KH and Clare one after another in an aid for the installation of the program. Oh plus the various ppl in hall who lent me various stuff needed for backup and reinstallation of programs. Thank goodness for the hall community. haha =p

Hmm i'm breaking my own record of the time spent in ntu/hall for a whole wk. Been in here since sun night, and i'll only go back late tonight, cos i'm staying back to watch IHG Badminton Semis which my hall will be playing. SOMEONE presumed that i'll want to go home, and not go down to support. how disappointing. haha, so i decided that i'll just stay to watch, and at least there's ede to accompany me too. haha. And i've been in ntu land for the whole week! Didnt even step out of campus at all, and well, it's really amazing how i can still stand it. I guess it's bcos i've been rather busy everyday, esp. on tues where i only returned back to hall at 12am after convo stuff. So there's really no choice but to stay all the while. I'm really looking forward to returning back to the east tonight though! Cos nowhere else beats the feeling of home, haha =)

Okay CNY is coming soon, i'm feeling the hype for it alr, esp. the hall canteens are playing cny songs everyday. haha, i cant wait to feast on the cny goodies! jas ah, pls take care n get well soon to enjoy ur bakes too! =)

Okay i acty have alot to say.

Like how i've been going to classes without knowing what's exactly going on and then just sitting there stoned, or like how i've been sleeping at abt 3am or so every night hence my perpetual stoned mind.
How i'm so overwhelmed by the hugeeeee amt of readings i've to do such that i really dunno where to start, or like how i'm going to get busier with convo ball stuff and how sometimes i can feel so inadequate abt the whole thing but nevertheless learning alot at the same time.
How i'm grateful for having a hall but missing home a lot more, or like just basically how lost i am now.

Okay that has been quite alot.

Hmmm there was IHG Opening just now, so there was the annual inter-hall cheerleading competition! It was fun to watch, and i'm so proud of my hall cheerleaders cos of their hardwork! Imagine coming back 2 or 3 nights a wk during dec holidays to train. Imagine after sch reopens, training is till 2am every night, then wake up for 830am classes the nxt day. Really admiring.

Anyway, i'm going to reformat my comp. Sigh. Dont want to repeat the story of what propelled me to finally do so. I hope it all goes well though. Acty i just need to pray that the ntu's computer shop ppl will help me reformat when i bring my lappy down tmr. And that they do a decent job out of it. Haha.

Dinner affair at Hogs Breath Cafe at Chjimes just now.
Persis's 21st bday celebration dinner.
Great ambience, great company, alright food.
Haha.

It was a CP affair, and i was the only non-CP around. They decided that i'll takeover the absentee. How amusing. Once a biz mag, always a biz mag. Haha.

Anyway, the highlight of the day was how Small Alex got tricked by SC. SC took Alex's phone and pretended to play with it, while he acty went to change his saved contact name to "999" instead. Then, he returned the phone to Alex. After awhile, he called Alex, and gosh was the latter stunned, when he saw "999" appearing on his caller-id. Haha. Small Alex really thought why the police was calling him. It was so funny, hahaha.

Well, we bought the birthday girl 5 pieces of cake - 4 different types of cheese cakes, cos she's such a cheese cake lover, plus 1 choc banana cake. All from secret recipe. =) The whole night was filled with intelligent conversations where we talked abt stuff in sch to financial issues to social issues and even politics. Hmm i dunno why but somehow the conversations just went as far to Democrats vs Republicans and the names of the US elections candidates. Haha.

Anyway, we also reminisced on those yr1 and FOC days. So many memories held tgr with the grp of them. Faizal mentioned that those days were so carefree -- modules were simpler, stress was manageable, fun still existed in everyday life. It was such a simple sentence, but we all felt so deeply for it. Compared to the past 1 wk where I went to class and not being able to understand what my tutor was teaching at all. Really how so different.

Hmmm really adore hanging around the grp of them, cos I learnt some really meaningful stuff from them. (And its not abt those current affairs, lol) Hmm i also hope that the whole main comm will gather altogether once again soon. Haha. On a sidenote, I'm really happy for one of them who has moved on with his decision and i hope he'll really strive towards his new direction. =)

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I bumped into a fren who's having his internship at Deloitte now, since he's gg away for exchange soon. He told me that he had been working till 2am for the past week, and there was even a day when he knocked off at 5am. And note that he's just an intern. The feeling which i got after hearing that wasnt really shock or amazement, but more of a reality-sinking-in feeling.

So those tales which I've been hearing so much are really trueeeee.

Been wanting to take up yoga or pilates ever since the end of my A'lvls and i finally got down to doing so by attending my 1st pilates cls this afternoon. =) I know i'm definitely going to have muscle ache tmr from all that stretching! It consisted of breathing exercises and maintaining some poses that will send your whole body in jiggles. haha. But it was a good session! Looking forward to the next one, and i hope to see some results after all the sessions have ended. haha. =p

Okay half of my sch wk is gone alr. I smell the sweetness of home approaching! =)

I need cures for insomnia!!!

Went for cls at 830am this morning looking like a walking zombie, cos i didnt catch a wink at all last night.
It was my 2nd night sleeping in hall, and i couldnt fall asleep again.
Sigh goodness, save me.

If this goes on, I'll just keep going home, and this will never make me get used to ever sleeping in hall.
Hope i'll be able to sleep tonight.

I'm STILL looking super spaced out now, and i've to leave my room soon to go back to s4 to attend convo meeting.
Hmmm the sky is so dark outside now, and thunder's roaring non-stop.
Can pls dun rain till 4pm?!?!
Till i safely reach under the roof of s4.

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(edited few minutes later)

Okay.it's.pouring.now.

Fallen sick on the 1st wk of sch.
Tsk tsk.

So determined to start a healthy lifestyle this sem.
Am going to start a running regimen once i get well.

And sha, annkang and i signed up for pilates cls which will start next wk!
Haha.
Hope it'll be fun. =)

So school has started with a busy flurry of trying to get textbooks, getting in tune with the new modules (201 is just so huh?!?!? to me currently) and forcing ourselves to wake up for 830am lessons.

And there's going to be alot of other stuff coming up, like application for internships and preparation for convocation ball.

But anyway, the most impt thing is that
i.so.need.to.fall.in.love.with.accouting.this.sem.

Sigh.

Okay anyway, on monday, i went to give roomie jodi a surprise send-off with mindan, jieying and ernnie. Haha, it was quite a hilarious day. Esp. when we went to explore terminal 3 after sending her off. Took really funny photos which u can only take while the terminal is still closed. May post them after i've gotten them frm md. =)

Then yst night, gen held her 21st bday party at NSRCC. The first 21st bday party that i've attended. The theme was Old School, so we went decked in uniforms! haha.

Part of FOC Main Comm that attended.

Us who cared to adhere to the theme. Haha. I wore my VJ uniform but i dun have my tie anymore cos it was lost during FOC. Clare wore a Japanese uniform that comes with a black blazer. =)

And those who did not wear uniforms declared that they shall be poly students for a day. Haha.

Okay i've been rushing from east to west everyday and it's really so tiring. Times like this make me grateful for the fact that i've a hall to depend on. Okay it'll be hello to hall life frm nxt wk onwards.

For now, the school wk is over for me this wk (yay!) but i'm going to spend my wkend recuperating. Cos i'm down with such a bad sorethroat that i can hardly talk now, and i need to catch up on my sleep! Only slept from 3am to 6am last night, cos i was rushing my assignment after returning from gen's party.

Ah hectic school life all over again.

I've been re-reading Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood.
At a slower pace this time, to rediscover things.
Perhaps to try to unravel and comprehend the irrationality of love.
Perhaps to regain the faith in the emotion held in highest regard by all.
Perhaps to rediscover a reason to believe.

To search for what has been lost over the past year.

No worries, I'm still in one fine piece.
And nor have i been thru any huge damage or experienced any heartbreak during 2007.

It's just a matter of seeing past alot of things that were used to be deemed very important, and then losing faith in some other things.
To the point that i feel that it is now perhaps time to try to regain some faith and trust, in order to strike a healthy balance.

Been having heart-to-heart talks with a couple of dear frens on separate occasions during this hols.
A very good time to catch up and understand one another more.
After hearing so much, it's yet again another reminder to me that there's still alot more to learn.
And it's perhaps now the time to start beliving and hoping, to a greater extent.
Even though the subconscious mind is still unwilling to take a step further in the face of fear.
Still, as the song goes, "There can be miracles, when you believe."

I will try to believe in more.

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School is starting really really soon again.
I'm feeling loads of dread this time, perhaps cos there seems to be alot of uncertainty ahead.
And perhaps the past semesters that i've gone thru are making me even more wary.
To think of the move back into hall again on sunday night, which is approaching so fast, and restarting hall life again is a hassle in itself and adding on to the dread of everything else.
I guess i've gotten too used to staying at home for the past 2 months alr.
Okay nvm, i just need to adapt. =)

The clock now reads 2.55am.
This was supposed to be an half hour login at 1.30am to IE just to check mails.
An inspiration sparked off from reading a blog has somehow chased away the writing block and resulted in some paragraphs above, coming out from a perpetual exhausted soul due to a whole day of shopping.
Just some mindless thoughts, dun mind me and dun read too much into them.

Goodnight all. =)