Exams have finally ended on 28th! This time round, the whole exam period seemed much longer than usual, hence making it even more unbearable. Anyway, my last day of exams ended on a very depressing note. On the loooooong train journey back, my whole mind was just filled with how I just threw away my A coursework grade just like that. That pointed alphabet which i've worked so hard for. And it might not even be for one module. All those weekends of forcing myself not to watch so much tv, but go do up my tutorials instead. All those weekdays of limiting myself not to go out of ntu so often, but stay in hall and finish up tuts/projs/mug for tests. All those days in the sem of telling myself to bear with everything and just push on. RAH. Okies nvm, shall not dwell on it further. Perhaps things might not be that bad, haha.

And with that, i'm done with half of my uni education.

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And then, yst i headed back to my beloved hall with roomie! Me to move into my new room, she to move out since she'll be gg on exchange nxt sem. So yup, photos galore ahead, with the abode that has accompanied us for the past 1 and 1/2 yrs (3 sems)!


Am so blessed to be part of Hall 4. I cld still rem when i was notified that i got this hall, i wasnt too happy, cos i thought it wld be old and well, many other reasons. But after i got in, I'm really so glad to be part of the Hall 4 family! And IF you've been watching Chn U, and IF you think this place looks kinda familiar, thats bcos my hall will be featured on Campus Yummy Hunt, hosted by Dasmond Koh and Felicia Chin! The student co-host is my neighbour jy, plus some of our hall frens will be featured! It will be aired soon, so be sure to catch it! hahaha =)


So this is my storey, and its also the highest point of Hall 4! We climb 7 flights of staircase everyday, really good training, haha.

The corridor.

Name tag on our door.

Our room number.


Welcome into our room!

So thats my desk, my bed, my side of the room. The above 3 photos were taken on one of those hectic n yet boring days in the semester, so yesh i know, the room isnt very tidied huh. haha.

And thats our coffee table! (And alot of ppl in hall have the same table too, haha) As time went by, we started to just anyhow dump things on it, simply cos of convenience. haha. And oh, i forgot to take a pic of our food corner!

Thats the common toilet. The posters have been there for almost the whole sem, being exposed to strong winds and whatsnot, hence explaining their tattered and torn condition, haha.

A closer look at the number code lock!

A final pic of us before we bade farewell to our room!
Will definitely miss blk 23 very very much, cos i'll be moving off to blk 27. Its only been this sem that 23 has become much more happening, cos soooooo many of them have moved in here. And yet, i'm moving away. Hmmm but nvm, i'll still crash 23 blk supper in future! haha. Really cant imagine how hall life will be like nxt sem, cos its gonna be very different without jodi i guess. But at least there're still other frens around, so welllll, will just see how. =)

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After the trip back frm hall to home, i managed to change into formal office attire and squeeze in an hr for a haircut before rushing down to Amara Hotel in the evening! Went to help out at NBS Alumni AGM which was followed by a seminar.

Despite the mad rush and everything else, I'm really glad that i attended this event cos it was a truly enriching and meaningful experience. I hadnt attended any networking sessions held in sch in the past sem, so yst night served as my 1st experience attending events of the like. From interacting with the alumni to the conversations held with my seniors and littered with little details of everything else done in networking sessions, it was a valuable lesson which i've gained. And it gave me a deep realisation that no matter at which point of time in our life we are at, there're always still alot more things awaiting to be found out and be learned in order to improve ourselves as a whole. =)

And this is what we got as an appreciation gift for helping out at the event! Thought this namecard holder looks not bad, except that i dunno when i'll have the chance to use it though. haha. =)

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I spent the whole afternoon just now reading through the blogs dedicated to the 5 dragon-boaters who have filled the hearts of most singaporeans for the past wk. And it feels really heart-wrenching. The President of NTU sent an email to everyone of us, expressing his condolences and informing us that 3 of them were part of our extended family -- 2 being alumni, 1 being a prospective student who was supposed to enter nxt yr. Even though i dunno any of them personally, i felt really heavy-hearted after reading through the various blogs. Its probably cos some of them are my frens' frens, perhaps cos they're all so young with such promising futures, perhaps cos we're all about the same age and i can understand fully how every young person has so many dreams awaiting to be accomplished, perhaps cos i can totally relate to them in so many aspects.

4 of the blogs were frens' dedications to them, while Reuben had his own blog penned by himself when he was still around. Through it, i totally can understand what he meant by his thoughts on being the chairperson of Piano Ensemble in his poly, and all the various thoughts on music, and by listening to his music compositions, one just cant help but feel that this is someone really outstanding in this field. And the fact is, its not just the music arena. The last post holds many questions for us all, as we're left to ponder what it was all about. It just simply hurts to read the words. The 4 other blogs allowed us to understand how everyone of them was like, and reading every blog is as painful as it can get in itself. Its really a tragedy in Singapore sports history.

This topic came up between the group of us at the alumni event, and grace was telling us how scary it is that more and more young adults just leave the world just like that. It's getting so common you know.

In itself, this tragedy will also serve as a reminder to all of us that its really a blessing to be able to live and see the world as we can today. And as quoted frm xj, as long as we're healthy, we shld really really be contented.

Its not a matter of who performed better for the papers anymore; but rather, who did worse for the papers.
Its not a matter of hoping that our own answers are the best; but rather, other ppl's answers are worse.
Then, let the beloved bell curve rank us and see where we stand.

No time no time, so no time.
No time to finish revision and remember stuff thoroughly.
No time to finish doing the paper.
No time to sleep.

For the past few nights, i've been ranting to my sis, "tonight like dun need to sleep alr cannnnnnn. ahhhhhhhhh."

And so many ppl in nbs have ended their exams alr.

Okays nvm.

It's the LAST LAP.
PERSEVERE!

so very tiring.
cant fathom.
at all.


Everytime when my esteem hits low,
Everytime when i feel inadequate and incapable,
Everytime when i feel alone and worthless,
I think of your words,
And then i'll be ok,
Cos i would be reminded that at least someone out there appreciates me for who i am.
And that i.am.not.invisible.

Thanks so much for the therapeutic talks and everything else.
It's a blessing to have you in here; it's a blessing to be under your care.

So yesh, i'm still very much alive and kicking!

It's just that i've been hibernating at home to mug for the dreadful exams. =( And esp. for the first few days when i came home, i just ended up casting aside my communication tools (without having any intention to), since i can now seek solace in tv and talk to my family. And turning really domesticated by experimenting cooking and stuffs. Haha. So there was no contact made with anyone frm ntu, and the only form of communication i made was thru wall-ing with some old dear frens. haha. Okie but that was only for the 1st few days. Started to slack after that and got back to sms-ing and msn-ing, and i cant gain back my mugging momentum ever since. Sigh.

So i had my 1st paper yst for my elective Forensic Sci, which i'm really disappointed and upset with myself, cos i hadnt done as well as i should have! So totally not into the exam mood yet, like i forgot to bring in my matric card into the exam hall at 1st, and then not focusing enough, and then writing rubbishy answers that i think the marker will laugh off his chair when he reads my paper. My answer might live down the years cos my prof might show it to future students and tell them not to give such rubbish in exams. So omg.

Okie anyway, so i've started mugging for my next paper, another elective again, TCM. I'm so dead for it; even though i've S/U-ed it, but stillllll. Gone are the days when i could stay up till the wee hours and let my brain absorb the cheem cheem chinese words and memorise them till my exam and reiterate everything out word for word during the paper. Yesh, gone are the days of chi lit back when i was in upper sec. I could still rem how my clsmates and i wld compare on who slept the least and how some of them would even call each other to keep each other awake so that we can finish memorising all the stuff. Haha interesting and memorable yrs back then, we were so young! Now i need my sleep and my brain can no longer absorb cheem cheem chinese words well. Yesh how shameful i know, esp. considering my background. Well, all i can say is no more science electives for me in future, and no more modules taken in chinese as well! I shld have just continued with my jap or sth. rah. =(

Alrights, i've been rambling on alot. This exam period is so dreadful. I've still yet to see the light for accouting modules, and once again i'm left wondering if i can ever see the light. Passion is just so impt in doing everything, esp. in taking your specialisation! Well, i dun hate my specialisation, since there're still modules that are not simply based on acc, so yah, its not like i'm having a really really hard time here. It's just that i need to see the LIGHT soooooon, so that i wont fall behind so many ppl here who're alr so apt in acc. Told roomie how nice it wld be if there's an exchange program where we can go other schs to experience a sem there. Although i suppose electives are supposed to be serving this purpose, but to be a full-fledged student in another sch would be kinda different i guess. Plus taking in the culture and all that. Then i wld definitely go to her sch, and perhaps discover my aptitude there. Haha. Okie i digress.

I shld really really go now.
Ciao! Take care everyone! =)

My application to change room to stay with ede has been approved by hall office! But well, being me, i'm still apprehensive abt everything that lies ahead nxt sem. Next sem seems really so scary. Hmmm but nvm, have faith n positive thinking. Everything will be alright. haha yup, so hall stuff is settled. =)

Convo ball stuff is also settled. Yay nbs seniors will have their convo ball at fullerton! Woah how classy right! haha, i'm so excited, even though its not my convocation. lol. But i wld be sad to see my seniors grad. =( And before long, it wld be my turn soon. If u all haven realised, i'm alr halfway done with my uni education. Yesh omg i know.

Alrights, so with all these done for the time being, its really time to studyyyyy. I'm staying in hall tonight, even though tmr is a public hol. Well, hopefully the change of environment frm home would do me good, since i keep watching tv/sleeping/chatting to my sis at home whenever i shld be studying. haha.

Study hard, everyone! Cant wait to see many of youuuuu in dec! =)

"Losing hope, losing faith, and losing trust. Trust seems no longer to be in existence. But it's ok, keep trying. Till the day worth surfaces."

So, it's been few hrs after my previous entry, and i've come to a decision sometime earlier. I'll move in with ede nxt sem! Mainly cos of the time-consuming modules and projs awaiting nxt sem, and the fact that i live so farrrrrr from ntu land. Well, new life in blk 27 and be block mates with a whole new bunch of ppl awaits, though i'll definitely miss blk 23 too! haha. Hmmm will have some admin stuff to settle abt this, hopefully hall office will be super duper nice. And yup, hope everything will be alright. lol.

Anyway, estelle and i went out to celebrate yifang's bday just now. I like to meet up with just the 2 of them, so much easier to catch up! haha. But i guess we were really tired and more stoned than usual. Sigh cant wait for exams to be over. Walking arnd cityhall makes me want to shop till i drop! but alas, no time at all. sighhh. Okie really really cant wait for exams to end! haha.

Yummy photos from Waraku! =)

Jap steamboat.

Omelette with fillings inside.

Cute dessert!

My loveliest babes from vega. =)

I wonder if fate was at its makings, but it just so happened that i bumped into spencer and ede (who also bumped into each other) at the mrt station just now and we ended up taking the train tgr. This would constitute sth quite normal, except for the fact that ede's going to turn roomie-less too. And so, the whole train ride became a psycho-session for me to stay in hall, and be roomies with ede!

Acty i've handed in the withdrawal form alr, and mentally wise, i've alr prepared myself for the long journey everyday in nxt sem. So even though i've heard frm ryan few days ago, that abby is moving out, and ede will be left roomie-less, i didnt really think much abt it cos i dun feel like considering this hall issue anymore.

But today, it just happened that me, ede and spencer see each other and this issue was of cos, raised again, and plus all the psychoing!
"Dun u feel like u'll be giving up quite alot if u dun stay in hall? Frens, time, whatever, a part of your uni life so far."
"Nxt sem very xiong leh"
"You'll be so tempted to take cab, which is so freaking ex back to ur house!"

Aiyo, so tempting.
How how howwwwwwww.