jc class gathering on sat evening.
so glad that i cld make it, cos i really haven seen so many of them for sooooo long. =)

somehow, there always seems to be this thing abt gathering with old frens that makes it really heartwarming. =)

anyway, i've confirmed abt my hall decision alr. talked super long to my hall office auntie just now by weighing all possible probabilities and scenarios. oh wells. life is abt give and take, knowing how to let go cos its not possible to get the best of both worlds.

hmmm bad sinus from morning till now. =(
and oh wells, plus some other irritants, which i seriously cant be bothered.
okie i shld go rest now, and START on my revision for exams today.
gosh.

Yet another bout of stress showered over this wk.
I'm back to my abode today.
To mug for tax.
For my tax quiz on saturday.
Tsk tsk.

Sigh.
Need lots and lots of motivation to revise for exams.
There seems no pushing factor at all.
How terrible right.

Plus need to settle convo ball stuff quickly, feel quite sad that i didnt manage to get an ideal price frm Fullerton, cos they increased their price till so high.
Even though my committee bosses most prob wont blame me, but stillllll.
Maybe i shld have PR-ed more with the manager. =(
And the fact that so many hotels' ballrooms are booked alr on a date thats abt 9 mths away is really agonising.
So everyone, nxt time when u all get married, u gotta book your ballroom 1 yr in advance.
The disappointment feels like FOC again, how we biz mags failed to secure a substantial drinks sponsor for all 5 days.
Rah.

And then, I've to decide about hall by monday.

I need time.
I need therapy.
I think i'm going to buy shoes again. lol.

Its getting more and more miserable by being there. But i dun understand why time and again, i still just end up there. Of my own choice.

Ok acty, i do know it deep down. I just dun feel like recognising the existence of all the reasons. Bcos time and again, as much as i hate to admit it, the reasons dun prove themselves useful enough for me to get drawn back there and put myself in such a difficult position. The numerous tries proved to be futile, and only futile.

It cant get better. It can only get worse.

Everyone else will just say give it up, let go, break free.
But then again, its not that easy when it comes to sth that was once treated of much worth.

during company law lec today, sha, annkang and i decided on impromptu that we shld go out after our lec ends at 1030am. haha.
so off we went to bugis, with a very yummy fish n co lunch and shopping as well! =)
but no nice clothes at bugis today, only nice shoes.
however, judging frm the overflowing number of shoeboxes i've stacked at home, and many pairs were only worn once or twice, i restrained myself from falling into my shoe addiction again.
haha.
anyway it feels nice hanging out with them in somewhere not on campus, (cos i'm seriously so sick of ntu land), and we cant wait for xiaowei to be back!

alrights, yay i realised i've a straight bus from home to woodlands, which is where i'll be going for faizal's house visitation tmr!
apparently, everywhere else is really better than boonlay. lol.
okies i'm looking forward to gather with the main commers! =)

today's thurs, and thurs is my free day, and today is the first time i've stayed in hall throughout my free day. and its really freaking boring! by saying that i stayed in hall throughout, it means that i've just been in my room, and only my room, other than 1 hr spent at the canteen during dinner, and not even my hall reading room. and everyone is always so shocked to know that i'm still in hall on thurs night, cos i've been zooming off home on either wed or thurs for the past weeks. sigh. i guess i shld stay in hall more often for the rest of the sem, esp. considering that this is probably gg to be my last sem staying here. and i know that i'll miss hall 4, cos i've always found it a blessing to be part of hall 4. i'm looking forward to block supper and exam supper/mini cultural night for the nxt 2 wks! =)

anyway, talking to sc just now, who is considering doing a partial exchange at nus next sem, gave me the idea that i shld probably consider doing a singapore exchange in yr3 sem1. haha. since i most prob wont be gg on overseas exchange anymore, due to the sad fact that mine is a 3-yr course, and its so difficult to match subjects to those countries where i really want to go, and i'm so not willing to overload nxt sem or in my final sem. previously, i had always dismissed the idea of doing a singapore exchange cos i see really not much point, other than the appealing distance. haha. but well, as sc puts it, to get away from the stressful life of ntu, it wld be nice to go nus or smu for exchange. since the grades wont be counted as part of our gpa when we're on exchange. and if sha and annkang really go on overseas exchange during yr3 sem1, i cant imagine surviving alone in ntu land myself, battling with all the projs and complexity in nbs.

escapism? perhaps.
exposure? definitely.

hmm and if i end up gg nus, where so many of my frens are, it wld be how interesting to be able to attend lecs or have lunch with them in nus campus can. haha. okays the very fickle me is having alot of silly dreamy thoughts now.

before all these considerations, i've to stabalise my gpa to sth satisfactory above everything else. which means surviving the upcoming exams and the killer yr2 sem2. seeing how all the grp a ppl are suffering now, i think i'm so gonna die nxt sem, having to juggle tutorials, projects, and travelling. omg. =(
oh well, take one step at a time.

on a lighter note, i'll be visiting faizal's hs this sat for hari raya with the other foc main commers! despite the fact that he lives in woodlands (yes omg), i hope that the attendance will be great cos its been really long since all of us had gathered tgr! we need to gather and crap and laugh like mad to destresssssss. lol.

Exams are coming. Cant wait for the deadline on wed to be over, so we'll be done with acc proj, like finally. Nothing much to say these days. Its just the same few issues in life that bog me down again and again. To the point that i'm just, whatever whatever. But its ok, i've learnt when and how to keep my smiles on.

Work is alot alot ALOT.

Company law assignment is driving me crazy. Over a span of 4 hrs last night, i finally started from scratch and churned out 1900 words for the report. But when i wanted to start editing this morning, i realised i'm totally lost in what i had typed. I've pored through the whole case so many times till all the ideas are mixed up in my mind. Law of diminishing returns. RAH.

Anyway, i pushed forward my annual checkup with my eye specialist to yesterday, cos my eyes have been itchy for the past 2 wks. (Some background info: I've been diagnosed with dry eyes 2 yrs ago, so i do have my own eye specialist, and thats why i dun wear contacts daily.) Well anyway, i was told that the cause of the recent discomfort was to due oily eyelids. Oily eyelids! I've hardly heard of that u know. But anyway, i'm fine, its just that i've to use lid wipes religiously for a while now.

Going to hospital made me see alot of interns around. Smart well-dressed young adults my age, looking ever so professional in their white robes. How admirable actually. Maybe robes make a difference, like doctors have white robes, while lawyers have their black robes. Accountants will probably only be decked in blazers and have the power suit look. And then, we hear of parents telling their kids to grow up and be doctors and lawyers, but never accountants.

Okay, that was rather random. Haha.

Alrights, i'm gonna do some reading now before i zoom off to proj meeting! And then, i'm having mid-autumn celebration in hall with steamboat dinner tonight! How time flies. It feels as if it was only weeks ago that i was helping out for this event this time last yr. Simply boils down to a case of too many things, but yet too little time.